“Normal”

A sweet friend of mine shared this with me over a year ago, and I want to also share it with you.

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Have a fabulous day- see you soon!

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The Struggle

I have never understood that “The Struggle is Real” saying. But I am hear to tell you THE STRUGGLE IS REAL.

Everyone is struggling with something.

Pride

Laziness

Anorexia

Organization

Self Discipline

School

Divorce

Depression

Anger

Resentment

I think this is such an important thing to realize. When I envy other people and crazily think, “if I were like them, everything would be perfect.” I have to remind myself, no life is without struggles.

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It took me a long time to realize that the struggle is part of the story. Without the valley, there can be no mountain.

I am a lover of fresh starts… new days, blank notebooks, August of every school year, January 1st, tanks of gas with zero miles. I constantly feel the urge to “start over” when I fall. However, in time, I have realized I cannot start over. I can never, on my own, wipe my slate clean. My story is my story.. ups & DOWNS included.

What are you struggling with?

Would you dare to just embrace it and know that

the Lord is working for our good (Romans 8:28)?

Are You Happy?

Have you ever met that lovely new invention called one click check out on Amazon.com? Its terribly amazing. As well as amazing terrible for my checking account.

While I was on campus today, I found a green slip in my PO box meaning I had received a package! yay! I assumed it was a book I ordered on Amazon. Moments later I had the following between my hands:

via google mages

Yes, it is a book. It is indeed from Amazon. But remember that one click checkout thing? I had no recollection of ordering… (although I do remember considering it). I probably couldn’t have even jogged my memory with an interrogation from my mom sounding somewhat like, “What did you spend $4.63 on?”

I was incredibly excited though! And I think Buddha was right (on one thing) in saying, When the student is ready, the teacher appears.

I feel like I am just in a learning stage in my life. I am learning a lot about myself. I learn constantly in Mrs. Knight’s Intro to Communication class; even learned I may want to minor in Communication. I’m learning more about God, how incredible He is, and all that that encompasses. I’m learning to cook more. I’m learning to love vegetables. And as soon as I started reading the cover of this book, I knew I was going to learn Β a lot more.

Just a few small excerpts/phrases from what I read today as soon as I cracked the spine. [The Happiness Project by: Gretchen Rubin] Take a second with each of these to just let them sink in:

  • –“there is no duty we so much underrate as the duty of being happy.” -Robert Louis Stevenson
  • –I find greater value in what specific individuals tell me worked for them than in any other kind of argument- and that’s true even when we seem to have nothing in common.
  • –I was in danger of wasting my life.
  • –I had everything I could possibly want- yet I was failing to appreciate it. Bogged down in petty complaints and passing crises, weary of struggling with my own nature, I too often failed to comprehend the splendor of what I had.
  • –people teach what they need to learn
  • –the opposite of happiness, is unhappiness, not depression
  • –what you do everyday matters more than what you do once in a while (this was all to convicting!!)

Can you relate to this? To not being as happy as you should be or want to be? For some maybe not happy at all?

Especially as she says,”One of my worst qualities is my insatiable need for credit; I always want the gold star, the recognition,” Gretchen Rubin encompasses so perfectly my search for thank yous after giving gifts, my love of the oohs and ahhhs when I redecorate.

In all of this, I am simply saying that “I am happy- but I’m not as happy as I should be. I have such a good life, I want to appreciate it more- and live up to it better. It is hard to explain. I complain to much, I get annoyed more than I should.” I haven’t been living to my full potential or being happy in my day to day, seemingly pointless routine. Through reading this I hope to find that something extra… enjoyment in the little things. But, of course, I will never reach that without keeping my focus wholeheartedly on the Giver of true happiness.

HAPPY ARE THOSE WHO LIVE PURE LIVES, WHO FOLLOW THE LORD’S TEACHINGS. HAPPY ARE THOSE WHO KEEP HIS RULES, WHO OBEY HIM WITH THEIR WHOLE HEARTS.

psalm 119:1-2

For a little happy in your day check this out….

What an incredible thing.. that not only is He constant, but He promises to never forsake us. Forsake meaning to give up. He will never give up on us, no matter what. He is only good. Oh to bask in that realization.

COMING NEXT IS A FASHION POST!

Real.

A question has arose in my mind multiple times during this unique time in my life. I am growing up, grinding through my freshman year of college, and trying to figure out who I am. As me. 
As a woman, I think it is common, almost unavoidable, to have jealousy (and lots of it!). So often I am found wanting to be like someone else… Sometimes, this is great. I love having Godly women to admire and look up to. But sometimes, it becomes irrational. I need to be me, not Jennifer Aniston. I need to workout like me, not Kelly Ripa. I need to worship God like me, not Lysa TerKeurst. 
It’s a journey, thats for sure. 
A curvaceous one. 
But I’m becoming more Real. (and I love and find peace in that.)
It’s a spiritual, emotional, physical, and mental thing for me
I’m beginning to see the differences in the things I truly love and yearn for and the things I do/participate in/etc because I saw someone else or anxiously flipped to the beautifully photoshopped images in Glamour while waiting in line at Kroger.


β€œWhat is REAL?” asked the Velveteen Rabbit one day… “Does it mean having things that buzz inside you and a stick-out handle?”


                                                     “Real isn’t how you are made,” said the Skin Horse. 

It’s a thing that happens to you. When [someone] loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real.”
“Does it hurt?” asked the Rabbit.“Sometimes,” said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. 

When you are Real you don’t mind being hurt.”“Does it happen all at once, like being wound up,” he asked, “or bit by bit?”
It doesn’t happen all at once,” said the Skin Horse. “You become. It takes a long time. That’s why it doesn’t often happen to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept.
Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don’t matter at all, because once you are Real you can’t be ugly, except to people who don’t understand… 
once you are Real you can’t become unreal again. It lasts for always.” 
-Margery Williams Bianco, The Velveteen Rabbit




 Has this ever felt like a struggle to you?
Thanks for hearing my heart, loving me, & watching me grow.

Time for New Leaves.

I figured out the coolest thing today! A synonym for resolution=determination. How nifty is that?! So— here are my New Year’s Determinations for 2012.


As 2011 rolls out (thankfully!) and 2012 saunters in, I resolve/aspire to do the following things: 

Spiritually
I will have a Morning Quiet Time everyday, with my phone turned off.
I will attend church at least 45 Sundays in 2012. Even in Starkville.

Physically
I will not drink carbonated beverages and have only 2 sweetened drinks/week.
I will run 4x each week in training for 1/2s in March and April & continue after.
I plan on slimming down & toning up!

Educationally
I will complete 3 full semesters/atleast 42 hours (Spring, Summer, Fall) with at least a 3.2 GPA.
I will read 12 non school related/fun books by Jan 1, 2013.

Blogally
I will write 100 posts in 2012. That means no more week long breaks for me & lots of reading for you!!
I plan to update you at the end of every month on my progress (yes, there will be progress!! every. month.) for NYResolutions!

Organizationally
THESE ARE HUGE FOR ME!!!
I will use only one purse for the entirety of 2012. Loving my Camel Coach Chelsea Carry All right now πŸ™‚
&&& use only my Coach planner/agenda. (If you know me, I usually change planners about 37x/year)

Relationally
Mitchell & I are going to complete our jar slip assignments each week!
-more on my cheesyness with that later πŸ˜‰

No “ifs,” “ands,” or “buts” about it… at least I hope!! This year will be different right?
This is it. See: Change.


New beginnings are always fun! πŸ™‚ And I am thankful to end this year with so many great friends (and in Pickwick) & start it with them too! See ya next year bloggers! [I am thankful for YOU too!] Here’s to 2012!! 



Dreaming.

Oh, blogging.. I’ve fallen in love. 
I love reading, like for hours.
most blogs i read i feel like are so much better, more organized, more interesting than mine. but this only fuels my fire more. 
I love writing.. like really love…
And I loved the way this conversation with Mr. Lindsey (I like to call him this because it sounds classy, and manly, and it’s part of our Daily LL emails… more on that later πŸ™‚ sounded.

Me: “I have go to figure out what to pack for Virginia… Like should I bring my laptop?”
M: “Yeah!”
Me: :”I do want to blog”
just sounds good. And i really like the fact that people take time to read about me. my life. my loves. and my dreams. (Thank you!!)


Dreaming is a big part of my life. I love to just imagine, and think!
Some of my dreams include:
-Running a half marathon (planned for Spring 2012)
+ running a full marathon sometime I’ll find my lost motivation, right?
-Get married young I know, so many differing opinions on this, but we will trust God’s plan, and do it if we are confident
-Teach Kindergarten Shelby County would be an answered prayer!!
-own my own business I dream of owning Em’s Events, being the boss, and having employees!
-own my own house, in Collierville… & I wouldn’t mind a wrap around porch, red door, and everything I find on Pinterest.. is that to much to ask?
-being completely comfortable in my body — I CAN do this
-Being a mom. A loving, fun, playful mom of 5… haha the number may change
-drive a range rover it’s called dreaming for  reason, right? πŸ˜‰ Its limitless!
BUT, aside from all the material things I dream of owning, the good deeds I dream of doing, the family I dream of producing, I want to live a life of peace and love and joy, a life that is pleasing to God. For this is why I was placed on this earth.
And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him. Colossians 3:17
+ Do something big, outside of myself, something unexpected, spontaneous, God ordained.. We shall see.

maybe I am crazy. and ahead of myself,
 but I love it &
As the love of my life taught me, Dream BIG!

What are your dreams? And what are you going to do today to get closer to them?


P.S. What do you want to see me blog about!?